A New Post!

So you might be wondering "what I've been up to lately and what I've been thinking about," eh? Well, I'm on my lunch break, so I'll tell ya.

Life since the fire has been difficult on varying levels. I feel like I'm always busy and never organized. I did have a week a couple weeks ago where I finally felt mostly back to normal, but I need to start picking up the pace again because I want to get my room looking like a real bedroom again. I still don't really have furniture in there besides my bed and I'm tired of stuff being in organized piles against the wall. I will begin to get that taken care of this weekend. Emotionally, I sometimes still grieve, but not so much for the stuff... for the other parts. I felt like I should at least mention something about the fire, but I still don't have much to say about that right now. It's so complex.

Work has its ups and downs. I have this sort of love/hate relationship with my job. Some days I love what I'm doing and I feel like I'm doing a great job, and other days I hate the tasks at hand and/or I feel like there is way too much to do and I'll never in a million years get it done (then I feel like "I quit!"). :-) I guess it's a matter of continued focus. "Keep on keepin' on." But I am beginning to consider when I want to leave and move on to something else and what that something else might be. I feel that it's okay to begin thinking about it more seriously since I've been here 14 months already and I'm still relatively young. (ha ha) :-)

The House of Prayer has been pretty cool. God's spirit is pouring out more and more in the House, in the lives of the worshipers, and in the city. It's pretty awesome. I wish I could figure out if I feel more called there, or into ministry with people. Even if I were to go on campus staff, or some other organization, I think that the prayer room would still be a big part of where I spent my time and attention, but I don't know if I'm a "for the rest of my life" kind of Anna. I guess what I'm saying is that if I spend 40 hours a week in the prayer room, where is my context for developing relationships with people? I mean, I'd obviously develop relationships with other worshipers and lots of folks in the House, but what about discipling new believers? What about making relationships with those who don't know him? What about teaching and preaching (since I desire to do both those things one day)? How does it all fit? I guess I just feel like having a job (or something?), even part time would be a means to do the outreach I want to do, but I want to be spiritually based in my church and the prayer room. I'm totally a "millennial" generation-er. I have all these dreams and ambitions, I'm an idealist, and I don't know how to make any of it all fit together. :-) Being a Gen X-er was so much easier. (ha ha... what do I know about that?)

Okay, I ran out of time. More later.